Emotional Rescue

For some reason this week has been overly emotional for me.  I’m crying at work.  I’m crying at commercials. I’m crying at watching TV shows.  Crying looking out the window at the beautiful Texas weather.  Cry, cry, cry, cry.  What a big whiny baby.  Being in menopause clearly continues to allow my emotions to be in overdrive.  GAH!

Is there a full moon?  People seem to blame stuff on the moon, so maybe it’s the moon. Maybe it’s just because I’m a woman.  Yeah, we woman get emotional. That’s a fact, Jack!  Or maybe it all comes down to the ABB5K this weekend.  My deeply rooted fear of failure is seeping through fueling the fire for my emotional rescue. Will I be saved?

Enough of the crying!  🙂

I’ve accomplished so much since June of last year.  I know it.  I can see it.  I can feel it. My life has changed for the better thanks to C25K.  Exercise has turned from a chore to a habit I actually enjoy.   But it hasn’t all been easy.  I still gain weight, I lose weight, I stagnate for a week or more.  I’ve received so many wonderful words of encouragement from friends, family and sweet strangers via this blog and social media.  My last blog post My Wish For You in 2014 has had over 2,000 views alone.  Your kind words inspire me to keep pushing towards my goal.  Y’all are the best cheerleaders.  Thank you.

So, why all the crying?  I pulled out my favorite work pants and had Steve take a picture of me holding them this past weekend.  WOW.  These slacks are a size 18 and they were really tight when I started exercising and focusing on balance last June.  The only new clothes I’ve bought since June are workout clothes so I think I’m in a 14 now, but as we women know, that number could vary on the brand. 

I’m going through my closet the next couple of weeks and will be giving all my clothes that are too big away to charity … except these black slacks.  I’m keeping these forever and leaving them in the front of my closet as a reminder that if you start something and keep at it, you win.  Period.  No number will define me.  Not a number on the scale.  Not a number on clothes.  It’s not about coming in first or even breaking a PR (personal record) because those are awesome, but instead simply, my best is good enough and I’m happy with me. 

One of the contestants on The Biggest Loser, Marie, said in this week’s episode, “The belief in myself has increased as my weight has decreased.”  That’s true for me too, but I still battle with a negative image of myself.  I think anyone who has struggled with weight their entire life will continue to do so.  We just have to keep telling ourselves every day that we’re gosh darn good enough!  🙂  Be your own personal cheerleader for any accomplishment.  No matter how small.  No matter how slow.  Fear is fear and we must never give up.  Never surrender!  Man, I love Galaxy Quest.

What am I afraid of?  Succeeding?  The ABB5K is a big deal to me.  Huge really.  I can play it off as another “completed” off my list, but it’s more than that.  It’s a fight against myself to beat my own demons.  Oh boy, do I have demons!  🙂  The theme to this years 5K is “Running Down A Dream” and my goal is to run the entire race within an hour.  I’m really slow, but if I can run over my own insecurities at my own pace, I will do it.  The only thing stopping me is me.

So take heart, everyone.  You can set your mind to whatever you want to do.  Everyone gets a second chance. A third.  Whatever number you want to put on it.  Finish your own race and focus on YOU.  Any age, any size is capable of great things.  Join me in letting go of fear and making it so.

I’ll be turning on my Runtastic app this Saturday, January 18, 2014 at the race start time of 0800 am so you can follow me and cheer me on from any computer or mobile device through Facebook or their website.  You do have to register to send the cheers to my headphones so if you’d rather not, it’s all good because you can also follow me via my Bib Number of 52431.  Which you also have to register to follow.  Ha!  Your support as always is so appreciated. I’m getting teary eyed just thinking about it!  🙂

Speaking of teary eyed, I’ll definitely be crying on Saturday after the race (and maybe during), but those tears will be of the joy of accomplishing something I never thought I could do. 

Join me, will you?


My Wish For You In 2014

I make New Years resolutions every year. Most if not all are forgotten by February, but this year feels different.  Starting my journey to better health in June 2013 has given me a head start on the new year and my resolution is to keep on track and help motivate others to do the same.  Oh, and more phone calls with less texting too.  🙂

I’ve been asked by many on Facebook what I’m doing to lose weight and stay motivated.  I’m not on a diet, but I do keep track via the MYFITNESSPAL app of my exercise and food intake.  I always thought keeping track of every calorie was too time consuming and pointless, but this app makes it easy and it’s a great tool to see where you are and were you can go.  After all, it’s all about balance, so I can eat what I want, when I want.  I’ve learned that withholding the foods I love only makes me discouraged and less likely to stay on goal.  Balance all things!  Just be sure to move too. 🙂

It was ultimately C25K, or Couch To 5K, that helped me get off the couch and get moving.  I have never been a runner nor ever engaged the thought of running.  When I used to go to the gym regularly, I lifted weights and walked the treadmill or rode one of the bikes.  That was it.  Running?  Pffft.  But I can say now that this app saved my life.  I had no intention of running a 5K when I first downloaded it, but now I WANT to run one.  I had to walk The Color Run in October last year because of the Gecko Incident, but I’ll be running the ABB 5K here in Houston in 2 weeks.  EEEK!  I have two torn meniscus from years of snow skiing in Garmisch and thinking I was 18 on the moguls of Snowmass in 2003 and I’m really slow, but I’m running.  If I can do it, so can you!

I recommend downloading the C25K app I linked above, get fitted for running shoes at a local athletic shoe store and take a free running clinic to make sure you have proper form.  Yes, you must have proper form when running or you’ll end up with an injury like I did that put me on 6 weeks of bed rest.  Start walking, start slowly, but just move.  Texas has Fleet Feet and Luke’s Locker so if you’re in our awesome state, click their links and check them out! 
I had a very nice Christmas with my family and friends and I hope you were blessed too.  I was lucky to receive this day-by-day runner’s log where I can keep track of my miles and how I feel day to day.  Writing down that day’s thoughts on my run is very helpful and I look forward to seeing how I progress in 2014.  Click the picture to get your very own running log today!  You can use it for walking too.
A couple of my Christmas wishes were answered with cold weather running gear and a Garmin watch to track my miles and heart rate.  I guess I wasn’t too naughty in 2013.  Haha. I was blessed by family who decked me out from head to toe.  Here is a pic of me before a run in North Carolina with a wind chill in the 20’s last week.  Brrr!  More importantly, if you had told me I’d be comfortable wearing running tights and shorts in public, I’d have laughed and laughed and laughed, but here I am and it felt great!  Imagine what Spring will bring.  I look skinny in this pic, but I’m not … yet.
This past week’s tale of the scale made me smile.  Twice.  We were out of town at my parents house so no measurements this week, but I’ll be sure to see where I am to share for next week’s blog post.  My once tighter smaller clothes are now getting loose too so I know I’m going the right direction, even through the holidays of chocolate, whiskey and pie.  I will run for whiskey!  
The Facebook Challenge by I <3 To Run really helped me stay on track by challenging page fans to run at least one mile every day in December.  I did it and I’m shocked I was able to do it.  Yay me!  Now, I’m doing their Run 100 days in 2014 challenge.  🙂
This pic is from North Carolina on New Years Eve 2013.
And this pic is from our scale at home yesterday, January 4, 2014.  Another goal met by getting under 190.  Next?  Getting under 180 by March 2014!  Let’s see if I can do it!  Challenge accepted!  🙂

I also signed Chulo Handsomehub and I up and joined the Cypress Running Club “No More Excuses” training program.  It’ll help us train to run the upcoming Blue Bell Fun Run in April 2014.  Eating all the ice cream you want after running in this event?  HECK YEAH!  🙂  Want to join us?  Click the Cypress Running Club link above and come on!  🙂  One way or another, no matter the failures, set backs and/or successes that will come throughout the year …


The new year brings new promises with a new slate.  You can do whatever you set your mind to do.  That little voice that says you can’t?  IT LIES.  So I wish you love, laughter and everything that makes you smile.  I wish you strength, faith and the determination to make all your dreams come true.  I wish you this:


Change your thoughts and you’ll change your world.

Have a 2014 new years resolution?  Share it in the comments section below and how you plan to keep it.

Merry New Year everyone!  🙂


Run Meesh, Run!

Time flies when you’re having fun.  It’s been a couple months since I’ve shared the latest on my quest to get healthy.  Right after I posted here in October, I was soon back and work and traveling for open enrollment meetings throughout my territory.  It is wonderful to be back out living life!  With the cooler weather, my new favorite thing is to run outside.  Refreshing, crisp and clean although the sweat dripping down my back is cold!  BRR! 🙂

And with travel, came a new set of challenges to keep myself in check to make my goal set for 6/20/2014 and beyond.  This time, I have different attitude and make a point to take my exercise clothes with me, eat as well as I can while on the road and am focused to stay in hotels that have gyms.  How did I do?

Success!  I’ve continually been able to lose weight, even over the Thanksgiving holiday.  This just proves that if you focus on balance and not banning the food you love from your life, you can keep weight off and be healthy.  Just keep moving!

Besides losing more weight, my measurements are smaller too.  The tale of the scale and tape are below:

Weight:  193 (total 26.8 lbs, 12.2% change since 6/20/2013)
Neck:  13 inches (total 1 inch, 6.9% change)
Waist:  38 inches (13.6% change)
Hips:  45 inches (13.5% change)
Bust:  42 inches (7.1% change)

Thank you MyFitnessPal app for helping me keep track and see real progress in numbers too.

I’ve started following several motivational pages on Facebook and Twitter and decided to do two challenges this month.  Run at least one mile each day and a 30-day plank challenge for December.  I’m still on track to complete each challenge!  For running, here are my numbers.  I’ve never really kept track before, but I like that it motivates me to see if I can go just a little further or faster each time. 

Sunday 12/1 = 1.13 miles
Monday, 12/2 = 1.31 miles
Tuesday , 12/3 = 1.43 miles
Wednesday, 12/4 = 1.76 miles
Thursday, 12/5 = 1.36 miles
Friday, 12/6 = 1.47 miles
Saturday, 12/7 = 1.17 miles
Sunday, 12/8 = 2.16 miles
I look in the mirror and can’t believe what I see, but I like it and as always, I’m the only one who will get in my own way.  This time I have a different attitude.  I’ve never stayed as dedicated or for as long in years.  I think it’s because of all the encouragement and inspiration I’ve received and read about on social media too.  Thank you everyone!

I’m running my first 5K next month at the Houston Marathon ABB 5K so I’ve got yet another goal to meet!  Run Meesh, run!

I’m grateful for each of you who help keep me on track, inspire me with your own personal stories and give awesome advice on how to become more healthy.  Y’all rock!  If my story helps you, then even better! 

Let’s see if I can complete the December run and plank challenge and lose a total of 30 lbs by Christmas.  Replacing my 4-5 Diet Cokes a day with water, running and walking for exercise, using Arbonne and Nivea for my face and focusing less on the negative and more on the positive is working.  Game on! 

Is there anything you do differently during the holidays to stay healthy?  Please share in the comments section below!

C25K COMPLETED! Now What? #Fit4Meesh

I began this journey on 06/20/2013 after hearing James Gandolfini died.  He was only 4 years older than I am now and for some reason, his death was my wake up call to get healthy and keep moving.  I went from barely being able to run one minute to running 30 minutes without stopping.  

Regularly exercising for the past 10 weeks has also helped me be able to walk down stairs “normally.”  Before running regularly, I had to take steps one at a time because of knee and ankle discomfort.  Now, I can walk down steps like the rest of the world.  🙂  I also went from drinking an average of three 16.9 oz bottles of Diet Coke a day to maybe 1/2 of a 12oz bottle.  If even that. Caffeine has been replaced by water. And a lot more of it.

With all my success the past couple of months, week 9 made me very nervous.  It was my final week of the C25K program and I’d be running 30 minutes. Without stopping.  Three times in a week. Even though last week I ran 3 days and was able to run 28 minutes non-stop, my mind continued to focus on doubt.

Just more proof that if we focus on succeeded and try with all our might, success can be accomplished because I didn’t allow myself to stop running and I completed the C25K program this morning!  WOOHOO!  Check out my funny before and after photo below.  HA!  I’m such a goofball sometimes.

Running and C25K has changed my life.  I want more.
This week I lost only .4 lb and another 1/2 inch from my waist — not much on those measurement numbers, but I’ll take it.  I need to start eating better when I’m on the road because my busiest travel season picks up in a couple weeks and I must keep up my momentum!  #Fit4Meesh has lost 13.4 lbs, but still has 40.6 to go so my journey continues.  I’m thinking of trying paleo … hmm …

Since I’ve completed the C25K program, should I be content with where I am now by just running a few times a week?  The C25K program gave me a goal.  I feel like now is the time to find my next challenge. 
What apps do you use to physically challenge yourself?  Please share in the comments section so I can start downloading stat!   
Whatever program I decide to work towards next to continue my weight loss and quest for health, I know I CAN and WILL do it. Especially when I’m keeping myself accountable like I’ve been doing here and on social media with all of you!  THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU all for your supportive messages, words of encouragement and helpful advice.  

Wishing you and yours a very safe and fun upcoming holiday weekend!  xox

More soon … 🙂

#Fit4Meesh Continues! Week 8 of C25K Complete!

Although June 20th wasn’t very long ago when I began this new journey of mine to get healthy, it seems as though I’ve been exercising for so much longer.  I guess it’s true that exercising and staying fit becomes an addiction.  I’ll take this addiction over all others because my results, albeit slow to show, are worth it!

Another .6 lbs run off this past week.  Yippee!  I’m most happy seeing inches disappear.  Goodbye to .5 inch from my waist, and an inch from both my waist and hips.  Totals are getting higher and I love it!  To date, I’ve lost:

  • Neck, 1 inch
  • Waist, 4.5 inches
  • Hips, buh-bye 3 inches
  • Boobage, seeYA 1.5 inches

I still don’t see that I’ve lost 13 lbs and all these inches, but it’ll come.  While there is a part of me that would prefer to see the scale drop dramatically week after week, I must constantly remind myself that slow and steady wins the race.  This race I have … with myself … has been and will be a constant battle, but I’m going to do it, DAMMIT.  🙂

There is one thing I’ve been completely blown away from in the past couple of months. The support of received from family, friends and complete strangers through emails, phone calls, texts and social media.  It’s been overwhelming and my heart thanks each and every one of you … YES YOU TOO … for your encouragement.  It helps motivate me to keep moving!

We’re taking our oldest to Texas State Technical College in Waco this weekend.  I’m very proud of my son moving ahead on his new journey too.  Looks like moving is becoming a very good family tradition.

Happy Friday y’all!