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Emotional Rescue

For some reason this week has been overly emotional for me.  I’m crying at work.  I’m crying at commercials. I’m crying at watching TV shows.  Crying looking out the window at the beautiful Texas weather.  Cry, cry, cry, cry.  What a big whiny baby.  Being in menopause clearly continues to allow my emotions to be in overdrive.  GAH!

Is there a full moon?  People seem to blame stuff on the moon, so maybe it’s the moon. Maybe it’s just because I’m a woman.  Yeah, we woman get emotional. That’s a fact, Jack!  Or maybe it all comes down to the ABB5K this weekend.  My deeply rooted fear of failure is seeping through fueling the fire for my emotional rescue. Will I be saved?

Enough of the crying!  🙂

I’ve accomplished so much since June of last year.  I know it.  I can see it.  I can feel it. My life has changed for the better thanks to C25K.  Exercise has turned from a chore to a habit I actually enjoy.   But it hasn’t all been easy.  I still gain weight, I lose weight, I stagnate for a week or more.  I’ve received so many wonderful words of encouragement from friends, family and sweet strangers via this blog and social media.  My last blog post My Wish For You in 2014 has had over 2,000 views alone.  Your kind words inspire me to keep pushing towards my goal.  Y’all are the best cheerleaders.  Thank you.

So, why all the crying?  I pulled out my favorite work pants and had Steve take a picture of me holding them this past weekend.  WOW.  These slacks are a size 18 and they were really tight when I started exercising and focusing on balance last June.  The only new clothes I’ve bought since June are workout clothes so I think I’m in a 14 now, but as we women know, that number could vary on the brand. 


I’m going through my closet the next couple of weeks and will be giving all my clothes that are too big away to charity … except these black slacks.  I’m keeping these forever and leaving them in the front of my closet as a reminder that if you start something and keep at it, you win.  Period.  No number will define me.  Not a number on the scale.  Not a number on clothes.  It’s not about coming in first or even breaking a PR (personal record) because those are awesome, but instead simply, my best is good enough and I’m happy with me. 

One of the contestants on The Biggest Loser, Marie, said in this week’s episode, “The belief in myself has increased as my weight has decreased.”  That’s true for me too, but I still battle with a negative image of myself.  I think anyone who has struggled with weight their entire life will continue to do so.  We just have to keep telling ourselves every day that we’re gosh darn good enough!  🙂  Be your own personal cheerleader for any accomplishment.  No matter how small.  No matter how slow.  Fear is fear and we must never give up.  Never surrender!  Man, I love Galaxy Quest.



What am I afraid of?  Succeeding?  The ABB5K is a big deal to me.  Huge really.  I can play it off as another “completed” off my list, but it’s more than that.  It’s a fight against myself to beat my own demons.  Oh boy, do I have demons!  🙂  The theme to this years 5K is “Running Down A Dream” and my goal is to run the entire race within an hour.  I’m really slow, but if I can run over my own insecurities at my own pace, I will do it.  The only thing stopping me is me.

So take heart, everyone.  You can set your mind to whatever you want to do.  Everyone gets a second chance. A third.  Whatever number you want to put on it.  Finish your own race and focus on YOU.  Any age, any size is capable of great things.  Join me in letting go of fear and making it so.


I’ll be turning on my Runtastic app this Saturday, January 18, 2014 at the race start time of 0800 am so you can follow me and cheer me on from any computer or mobile device through Facebook or their website.  You do have to register to send the cheers to my headphones so if you’d rather not, it’s all good because you can also follow me via my Bib Number of 52431.  Which you also have to register to follow.  Ha!  Your support as always is so appreciated. I’m getting teary eyed just thinking about it!  🙂

Speaking of teary eyed, I’ll definitely be crying on Saturday after the race (and maybe during), but those tears will be of the joy of accomplishing something I never thought I could do. 

Join me, will you?
 

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Run Meesh, Run!

Time flies when you’re having fun.  It’s been a couple months since I’ve shared the latest on my quest to get healthy.  Right after I posted here in October, I was soon back and work and traveling for open enrollment meetings throughout my territory.  It is wonderful to be back out living life!  With the cooler weather, my new favorite thing is to run outside.  Refreshing, crisp and clean although the sweat dripping down my back is cold!  BRR! 🙂


And with travel, came a new set of challenges to keep myself in check to make my goal set for 6/20/2014 and beyond.  This time, I have different attitude and make a point to take my exercise clothes with me, eat as well as I can while on the road and am focused to stay in hotels that have gyms.  How did I do?



Success!  I’ve continually been able to lose weight, even over the Thanksgiving holiday.  This just proves that if you focus on balance and not banning the food you love from your life, you can keep weight off and be healthy.  Just keep moving!


Besides losing more weight, my measurements are smaller too.  The tale of the scale and tape are below:

Weight:  193 (total 26.8 lbs, 12.2% change since 6/20/2013)
Neck:  13 inches (total 1 inch, 6.9% change)
Waist:  38 inches (13.6% change)
Hips:  45 inches (13.5% change)
Bust:  42 inches (7.1% change)

Thank you MyFitnessPal app for helping me keep track and see real progress in numbers too.



I’ve started following several motivational pages on Facebook and Twitter and decided to do two challenges this month.  Run at least one mile each day and a 30-day plank challenge for December.  I’m still on track to complete each challenge!  For running, here are my numbers.  I’ve never really kept track before, but I like that it motivates me to see if I can go just a little further or faster each time. 

 
Sunday 12/1 = 1.13 miles
Monday, 12/2 = 1.31 miles
Tuesday , 12/3 = 1.43 miles
Wednesday, 12/4 = 1.76 miles
Thursday, 12/5 = 1.36 miles
Friday, 12/6 = 1.47 miles
Saturday, 12/7 = 1.17 miles
Sunday, 12/8 = 2.16 miles
 
I look in the mirror and can’t believe what I see, but I like it and as always, I’m the only one who will get in my own way.  This time I have a different attitude.  I’ve never stayed as dedicated or for as long in years.  I think it’s because of all the encouragement and inspiration I’ve received and read about on social media too.  Thank you everyone!

I’m running my first 5K next month at the Houston Marathon ABB 5K so I’ve got yet another goal to meet!  Run Meesh, run!



I’m grateful for each of you who help keep me on track, inspire me with your own personal stories and give awesome advice on how to become more healthy.  Y’all rock!  If my story helps you, then even better! 

Let’s see if I can complete the December run and plank challenge and lose a total of 30 lbs by Christmas.  Replacing my 4-5 Diet Cokes a day with water, running and walking for exercise, using Arbonne and Nivea for my face and focusing less on the negative and more on the positive is working.  Game on! 

Is there anything you do differently during the holidays to stay healthy?  Please share in the comments section below!